Internet Dating.

 Trying to find love? When you're transgender? When you live in Scotland? Good fucking luck, sweetheart!

I stopped counting the rejections at 104. Why 104 and not 100? Fuck knows, that's not the point! The point is that I have had a ridiculously high number of knockbacks and it's not because I was ugly. When I was younger I was hot - puberty (I'll cover that elsewhere) didn't do too much damage, although it did a shitload more than I was/am happy about. Most people just can't handle transfolk. They find out and they bolt. I've had 2 relationships. That's 2. Two. In 57 years. Which is why I signed up with a trans-specific online dating site. Looking offline is way too scary a prospect and as close to impossible in the sticks as makes no difference anyway.

 So far I've had loads of attention mainly from men who I don't have any interest in, but also from two transgirls. I am/was interested in both. One has already disappeared and I having a yawning pit in my stomach about the other one disappearing too.

I'm starting to wonder if it's my destiny to be alone...

If this girl disappears I really don't know what I'm going to do. Probably just give up completely.