Dear Diary...

 So how's this working out? Thoughts any clearer? Didn't think so 😕

My poor inner Indie Chick is taking a pounding, but she always bounces back. I'm so glad I have her in me.  See, I get 'chatting' with someone and they express an interest and things go really well and I dare to hope things might go better and I let my guard down and I get ghosted. Of course before that I'm here like a fucking tit getting ready for a date that's never going to happen! So my stomach goes from butterflies to wee birdies to yawning pit then Indie Chick has a word with me and we're dancing again 😁

How the hell am I supposed to go about this though? I suppose it's good that they fuck off before things get going, but at the same time it would be nice to know why. I can guess, but that's not really good enough. In the grand scheme of things I don't suppose it matters - we weren't meant to be, move on. As the numbers start building up again I'm starting to wonder if there's anyone who can handle me, unfortunately, and that niggle is likely to eat into my confidence; not that high to start with 😐